Crazy Rants & Raves

I had a power-packed sleep last night. 10 hours without any disturbance, except for this stupid leg cramp in the morning. And i wonder why i had a leg cramp, i stretched too much? Bah

I was so tired for the past 2 days. First night, not being able to sleep because of my irritating cough, second day, for the most gruelling time of the semester. A 2hr lecture, followed by 6 hrs of lab work. Non stop.

Urgh. And i really hate lab work. 4 hrs of work just to extract DNA/RNA? I'm sure someone has invented something better like adding a magical chemical, and tada! there goes ur miniscule DNA/RNA pellet.

Prac yesterday was horrible. 6 hrs of shit, and lousy results. More like no results. Why? cuz the UV light didn't capture any bands. And what i have now is a blank piece of photograph. Fantastic. Yesterday, it was my first time using the nanospectrometer. It's the coolest thing ever. All you need, is like 1.5 micro litre (prob 1/20 the size of a raindrop), you place whatever solution you have on this metal plate (the size of a bead), and it measures the concentration as well as the nucleic acid/protein ration. How cool is that! I love it. And i love the mini centrifuge machine in front of me.

My friend suggested having a party in the lab. An insane suggestion as you can see. She said we could use centrifuge machine to mix drinks, incubation machine to warm drinks, and those those plastic tubes to contain our shots. Hah. Psycho.

My cough is so much better. I went to the campus clinic, and it costs me $1.50, inclusive of consultation and medicine. Whee! And i'm all ready to go jogging again.

I was watching Desperate Housewives on monday. I love that show. Then i was talking to K over the phone, he said i was like Bree, that ugly and crazy perfectionist. I don't think he meant the ugly part, but rather the perfectionist part. He said i'm so like her. Maybe i am. I expect so much, i always want things my way, i always want things to go perfectly smooth etc. He's right about me. Screw expectations! They only make you miserable.

Tues was my first Bahasa Indo class. It was quite fun. A little stupid though, like how we have to repeat whatever she said. That's so Chinese lesson in primary school.

I've learnt stuff like:
Apa Khabar (actually i knew this all the while): How are you?
Baik-baik saja: I'm doing great
Siapa ini: Who is this?
Anda dari mana: Where are you from?
Ayo, masok: Pls come in
pisang gorengnya enak: The pisang goreng/goreng pisang is good.
Kembali: Welcome

Haha. okay, this sounds really stupid. But whatever. At least i can speak abit. Can you?

I'm off now!

I'm in the midst of doing a lab report. And i'm most certainly pissed. At whom? I really don't know. Almost everyone and everything. At myself for screwing up the prac, at the Teaching Assistant for not even assisting us, for the damn pic of the DNA bands, its so faint i could hardly see a shit.

Nim!!! If you've done electrophoresis, DNA restriction enzymes etc, i need your help! I need someone to teach me how to map a restriction map. I'm so irritated now! Now NOW!

Today, i spent the day vacuuming my room, the living room, and the back of the piano. Horrors of horrors. Cob's web, dog's fur, a museli bar, (probably expired yonks ago) coin, paper clips. Crazy. I swear to make my next room/house Zen, so i won't have to go thru the hassle of vacuuming.

Oh no! The lab report is due on Tues. Urgh!! Worried. I'm having a bad break out. BAHHHH. Stupid K hasn't replied to my msg yet. Annoying.

Any one with good suggestions for Vday? Suggestions on gifts/celebration/surprises whatever?

Ciao

School started just one week ago, and things are not going too well.

I have a 3 day week. Hooray? Heh, its not till i found out today that i have 3 lectures that will be webcasted. Now thats what i call HOORAY. So, what, i go to school only for 1 module? Hmm..
This sem, I'll be doing Computing & Society-some computer ethics module, Bahasa Indonesia-who am i kidding. I get to be pally with maids. Experimental Biochem & Cell Bio-a lab module. 6 hrs of lab every week. Regulation and metabolism-something which i don't really mind studying. Molecular Biology-INSANE.

I've realised that the things that im learning now is what i've studied way before, like in JC1. Seriously, i was thinking, they've thought Protein synthesis for almost 4 times, Krebs cycle for 3 times, Structure of DNA 6 times, And gawd knows what.

Somehow, i enjoy arts lectures more than Sci. Why the hell am i in sci? Doing damn biomedical sci. HELP!!

When you are in a relationship, or when you are going to be in a relationship, do you guys actually think about the future? What sorta future you may ask, well future like 10 yrs down the road. That sorta thing. It freaks me out, just as much as him to even think about the future or walking down the aisle. I'm the sort that would be just as happy the way things are not. I don't really think about the future. It's not like I don't have a long term plan or anythign like that, but life is simply too short for you to think about the future, so might as well treasure and be contented with whatever you have now. Am i making sense here? Or am i rambling incoherently?

I was talking to an old JC classmate of mine yesterday, and i asked him if he ever thought of marrying his gf of 3 mths. And this was what he said to me, "It'll be nice to get married, but i don't wanna think about this at the moment, its too complicating" I liked his reply.

Sometimes in life, its not that we don't wanna look far, but whats the point of looking far when you can't even be happy now. He said, "Don't take 10 steps if you can't even take 1 step". Very true indeed. He's so philosophical (my friend lah) I think whatever it is, just be contented with everything, and screw the future. Life is precarious, so why bother about what happens when you grow old etc. I mean, its always good to think of the future once in a while, but don't harp on it, and don't try to mould your own future. It'll never happen that way. If its meant to be, it will always be. Nothing can change that.

I really don't think about what sorta guy i would wanna marry, or who i wanna marry. But i tell myself, yes i wanna get married some day, but whoever this other half is, only time will tell. Suddenly the word 'marriage' scares me a little.

Don't know what modules i should take next sem.
I better start deciding by tonight.
Don't know if i can even get the modules i want
Don't know if the timetable fits nicely

Screw the 5 day week. My timetable is insane! Give me a 6 day week, and i make sure i'll plan something neat. Bah. Its like turning time back into jc days, where we start early and end late. Fuck it.

On a side note, i fucking injured my left toe. That tiny toe, which most ppl don't look after. It's a sprain, and i can't walk. Hopefully i can by tmr, if not you guys won't see me at dinner.

Shit happened between me and K. Won't elaborate, till a later date. Things are left hanging precariously. Don't know anything concrete. Don't know this, don't know that. It has been a crazy start of the new year. Boo.

Resolutions for 2005

1. Be as lean as gwneth paltrow, so at least i could look decently attractive.
2. Stay away from damn meat!
3. Only 3 tiny meals a day, or 1 normal meal a day.
4. Don't bother jogging, unless i've eaten damn alot.
5. Get a cap of 4.0 next sem.
6. Be a nicer person, and gf
7. Salvage things
8. Start thinking of ways to make money.
9. Get my licence.
10. Open up to more ppl.